once, twice, three times obsessed

it was probably about 8 years ago that i developed one of my unhealthy obsessions.  (no, not chemical or romantical.  financial.)  the Balenciaga motorcycle bag.  lord have mercy on my wallet sinning soul, i fell hook, line and sinker for it.  it's the most perfect bag that exists, in my mind.   i've been practicing "safe shopping" for a while now, due to my "self employed" status. beyond boring and annoying - but i know it's the right thing to do.  sometimes, i believe the universe is testing us.  and this is a test.  this year marks the 10th anniversary of the motorcycle bag. to mark the occasion, they will put out a number of limited edition bags, some of which will be exclusive to Neiman Marcus.  (aka the cathedral of testing) including this one.  i want this bag so badly i would lick a sidewalk to have it.  but alas, i shall stay on my straight and narrow because i believe there will be a karmic reward.  or maybe the reward will be that i'll win the lottery - and then, if it's not too late, i can buy the bag!!  sigh.